March 14, 2012

Doll baby,

Well I made it like 23 days without missing a post. That's not bad right? I sort of fell off the wagon recently. Don't hate me. I find that writing a post a day was way to stressful. It was hard for me to find time during the day when you weren't with me when I could actually sit down and right a thoughtful letter. So I guess I'll just write a letter when I can. I'm sure you won't mind. Actually, you may be grateful for it because 365 letters from me may be too many! It was a tad ambitious of me to think I could accomplish that. I'm okay with it. The point is, I want to shower you with letters after our second year together and I can do that whether there are 365 of them or not. Actually though, since this year was a leap year, there would have been 366 letters if I had done one everyday. Huh. Anyways!

A lot has happened in the last few weeks. We had two big fights. I want to talk about them now because I hope that a year from now they will be such non-issues that we can laugh about them. One fight was about my gender stuff. I don't know. I hope that in a year I will have my gender totally figured out. But I was getting mad because I felt like you weren't taking it seriously. You kept messing up on pronouns and stuff. And it was really hurting my feelings. But I realize that you weren't intentionally doing it and that relearning all that stuff takes time. I just have to be patient and give you that time. The other fight was about my flirty nature. I upset you because of how flirty I was, and how I need attention from all the people around me and I need them to want me in a sexual way. We fought about it at like two in the morning. Dori was mad that we were fighting and wouldn't even come sleep in the bed. But we worked that one out.

The other big thing that has happened recently is that we quit smoking! Holy shit, right? We have made it two weeks as of writing this post. And I think we can make it all the way. The first three months are the hardest and the time that smokers are most likely to restart smoking. So I'll be sure to let you know on June 1 if we made it three full months. I really think we can do it though. We are so strong!

Finally, we found our wedding reception hall. Which is really exciting.

I like how I said finally but I am totally going to keep talking! We also decided to move into a two bedroom with Kendall and Paige on May 1! And Catherine and Andy went on border studies and then came back from border studies only to be kind of pretentious assholes about the whole thing and drive us absolutely insane. But it's okay. They'll will get over it. We have been hanging out with Kendall and Paige a lot and it's been really fun to be with another queer couple. We have also been having a lot of really awesome sex. I just wanted to point that out. Okay. That's all!

-D