Beloved,
I never thought planning a wedding would be so hard. It's crazy to think that by the time you get these letters, we will be three weeks away from our wedding. I thought wedding planning would be fun and easy. But I never expected so many people would think they knew what we should have better than we do. I hope we continue to put our feet down and insist on having a wedding that is uniquely us.
I'm sorry I'm so difficult to deal with right now. I will get better. But it's a lifelong struggle with EDs. It's not something that gets better and that will go away forever. It's something that is less extreme at some points and more extreme at others. But it will always be something I struggle with. One thing that makes me nervous about these posts is how I've promised myself I will chronicle everything. I do mean everything. I even want to chronicle the fights so we can look back a year from now and remember how petty and ridiculous all the little arguments were. At least I hope that's what we do. But we don't really fight that much anyways. Which is nice. It's one of the greatest parts of being with you. There's no real fighting, no screaming, no name calling. It's relaxing. It reminds me that we are doing something right.
Love,
D
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